So, today is the first (well technically the 2nd) day that I am home with Caleb alone, no help. I have not been fearful of this day leading up to it, I've actually found myself very excited. While I am MORE THAN GRATEFUL for ALL of the help both Grandma's have been, I am looking forward to getting into a routine with Caleb on our own.
So, it's almost 3:30pm right now, and Caleb has been sleeping since about 11:45am. AMAZING! During this time, I have been very purposeful. I turned off the t.v., sometimes a very hard thing for me to do, and opened up my Bible (what a concept, sleeping baby = time with the Lord!). I'm way behind on The Journey but am not going to give up! I'm not skipping any days either, I am just going to work on catching up, taking it one day at a time.
The Journey entry I did today was Psalm 4. The main verse was vs. 8, which says, "In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." The truth from this verse that I took is that no matter what my circumstance, the Lord is fully aware of my situation and I can trust Him to take care of me.
There have been many moments since becoming a new mommy that I have been filled with anxiety and fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of how the nightshift will go with Caleb. Will he sleep or be fussy? Fear of SIDS (this is my biggest fear of all). Fear that I will get frustrated with him when he won't go to sleep. Fear that he will grow up not trusting the Lord with his life.This life altering change that has taken place, a new sweet little life, is often overwhelming for me, yet, I know that the Lord is unchanging, and He knows every hair on Caleb's head. He knows all of Caleb's days before he was even conceived! What truths and promises those are, and what joy and comfort they provide to my heart! The Lord is holding sweet little Caleb in his arms at all times, and will keep him safe.
Lord, thank you for being all I need. Thank you for your promises, so I don't have to fear the unknown. Thank you that I live in a place where I can worship you freely. Where I can read your Word aloud, and pray aloud, to and with my son. Thank you for stirring my heart towards you, not only today, but every day. Thank you for Caleb. Thank you for the blessing he is to me. Help me not be so frustrated in the middle of the night when I cna't get him back to sleep. Help me to have patience with him. Help me to remember that this is only a phase and sooner than I know, he will be older and sleeping through the night. Help me to cherish this time that I have with him now. Help me not wish for easier times, but to cling to you during the hard times. Help me to remember that he is YOURS, and that he is a gift to me. Help me to trust YOU with his life and not worry about what tomorrow will bring, but enjoy EVERY moment I have with him TODAY! Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness. Thank you for your patience and grace with me as I try to be the best mommy I can to Caleb. Thank you for times like this, when he is sleeping soundly and I get to praise and worship you through song, time in your living Word, and prayer. I love you, Lord!
Be Blessed and Encouraged!
So, it's almost 3:30pm right now, and Caleb has been sleeping since about 11:45am. AMAZING! During this time, I have been very purposeful. I turned off the t.v., sometimes a very hard thing for me to do, and opened up my Bible (what a concept, sleeping baby = time with the Lord!). I'm way behind on The Journey but am not going to give up! I'm not skipping any days either, I am just going to work on catching up, taking it one day at a time.
The Journey entry I did today was Psalm 4. The main verse was vs. 8, which says, "In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." The truth from this verse that I took is that no matter what my circumstance, the Lord is fully aware of my situation and I can trust Him to take care of me.
There have been many moments since becoming a new mommy that I have been filled with anxiety and fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of how the nightshift will go with Caleb. Will he sleep or be fussy? Fear of SIDS (this is my biggest fear of all). Fear that I will get frustrated with him when he won't go to sleep. Fear that he will grow up not trusting the Lord with his life.This life altering change that has taken place, a new sweet little life, is often overwhelming for me, yet, I know that the Lord is unchanging, and He knows every hair on Caleb's head. He knows all of Caleb's days before he was even conceived! What truths and promises those are, and what joy and comfort they provide to my heart! The Lord is holding sweet little Caleb in his arms at all times, and will keep him safe.
Lord, thank you for being all I need. Thank you for your promises, so I don't have to fear the unknown. Thank you that I live in a place where I can worship you freely. Where I can read your Word aloud, and pray aloud, to and with my son. Thank you for stirring my heart towards you, not only today, but every day. Thank you for Caleb. Thank you for the blessing he is to me. Help me not be so frustrated in the middle of the night when I cna't get him back to sleep. Help me to have patience with him. Help me to remember that this is only a phase and sooner than I know, he will be older and sleeping through the night. Help me to cherish this time that I have with him now. Help me not wish for easier times, but to cling to you during the hard times. Help me to remember that he is YOURS, and that he is a gift to me. Help me to trust YOU with his life and not worry about what tomorrow will bring, but enjoy EVERY moment I have with him TODAY! Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness. Thank you for your patience and grace with me as I try to be the best mommy I can to Caleb. Thank you for times like this, when he is sleeping soundly and I get to praise and worship you through song, time in your living Word, and prayer. I love you, Lord!
Be Blessed and Encouraged!
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You are doing GREAT Jill! So glad he takes great naps and you got some time in the Word (we should talk and get a plan together for reading S for S). I'll be praying for your nights!
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